I honestly think I have driven myself insane. I have meticulously destroyed any shred of normality in my brain. I have turned every facet of behaviour into disorder. I have poisoned every part of myself that I ever had the slightest affection for. I have become an obnoxious, selfish, hideous, warped... thing.
I think maybe this is what a breakdown feels like. I am tired. I am so tired.
I can't do this.